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Wednesday, 11 November 2009

  • Oh #$@%!!!!

    Thank you for the warm fuzzy comments :)

    I'm still having a bad week though, and the shit keeps hitting the fan

    I just finished planning my schedule for Spring. Guys, really, I think I'm going to burn out by the time I finish this degree. I'll be taking a winter class for 2 weeks in January = no break between semesters. To make things worse, the Spring schedule looks overwhelming. 16 credits. I'll have a 2 hours break on M/W between 2 classes. In addition, on Thursdays I'll be in school from 2:30-8:20pm b/c of the Biology class lab. Awful. And I couldn't even get 1 class that I wanted to take for my Sociology capstone, nor a professor for my capstone major class because 2 of the marketing classes I need have only ONE damn section that overlaps the times and I have NO choice but to take them.

    Then I'll have to take that dumb required Zicklin school course, BPL in June...

    I can't even afford the TIME to go anywhere (like a nice beach in the Bahamas). The amount of work involved is deadly right now. I'm killing myself for the A's in 4 classes, and the D avg I currently have in finance (p.s. A is the highest grade Baruch offers). Yes, it's that bad. Not only have the exams been bunched up with each other this semester, but so have the assignments and projects. I literally had FOUR things due yesterday; even though I started them all way in advance, I was still losing my brains last weekend (as you so plainly saw).

    And now the professors are brooding...waiting...lurking...since the semester's almost over. I feel it. My fellow Baruch-mates feel it. 3viL approaches.

    //Til next time...

Monday, 09 November 2009

  • Actually, I'm Acting

    Okay. I've been consistently miserable and all I've been doing is putting up a happy-go-lucky front for everyone. I'm feeling pretty ugly and sad on the interior. This feeling has persisted a lot, especially since this hell-spawned semester began. Most of the time I manage to keep the nasty at bay and even when it threatens to spill out, it would seem that I'm missing out on a lucrative acting career.

    No one can tell that I wake up dreading the day. Not even the boyfriend, the BDO. I force myself out of bed. I force myself to attend classes. I also force myself to pretend to be happy. I don't want to burden people and I feel really uncomfortable when people try to pry. Really uncomfortable. I'm also not a "romantic" type, fyi in case you've missed that. I did snap on a friend last week who tried the mushy crap on me, surprising him and everyone else. I'm also not the type to talk about sex either (I'm even having trouble mentioning it now) and get really annoyed when people bring it up as a focal point in a conversation. Snapped on someone else for that last week as well.

    I've managed to finish the two mandatory papers due on Tuesday. Well, they're not done until I go back and edit them. Which I can't deal with until later today. Since apparently I can't go to sleep until 6am and I can't get more than 5hrs of sleep or I won't go to sleep until 10am of the next day (this happened to me this weekend. In addition I had another teeth falling out nightmare as a result of too much sleep. I prefer skipping REM stage all together considering how much stress I'm under. REM sleep stage is the actual dreaming stage, it's not Stage 4 dreamless sleep where you're purely recharging).

    Policy changes at Baruch equating to not enough hours in a day, days in a week to get things done. Bathroom renovation. Laptop drama. Parents more concerned with sister. Stupid Finance professor. Everybody yells at me. People expecting too much of me. Not having a decent night out to unwind. Not going on a real vacation in 3+ years (=beachy paradise). Getting the monthly "visitor" twice in one month.

    I need to go somewhere BY MYSELF for at least THREE days where I don't know anyone and don't have to give a damn about anything. I'm going to shut OFF my cellular device so no one can reach me. I'm not going to go online. I just want to be alone. I don't want to hear anyone else telling me what they need me to do or what I have to do for them. I'm sick of listening to other people's problems that can easily be avoided (i.e. don't charge anything to your credit card when you won't have the cash to pay the bill when the cycle ends).

    I need me time. But the Yellow Ninja can come too...I swear. His little chirps are one of the only things keeping me going these days...

    //Losing my mind.



Sunday, 08 November 2009

  • I Bring You This Interruption

    So I'm just sitting here going mad because I've been working on the three papers I have due on Tuesday (yes, kill meh), all damn weekend. One of them is lethal (Sociology midterm), the second can be construed as being slightly less dangerous to mental sanity (First 3 parts of Intl Trade Logisitics Project) and the third is tame but annoying (Sociology Summary #14 of 15 required).

    And here I am typing away furiously at my midterm, kind of freaking out that I haven't put much effort into the slightly less dangerous paper (not to mention professor decided Thursday that he wanted it in 4 days) when my focus is rudely interrupted by a loud crash emanating from the bathroom. Yes, the bathroom under construction.

    Buddha stops singing (his presence is very calming to the production of papers hence why he is in my room at the moment) and him and I exchange looks. WTF?!

    Mind you it was a pretty loud crash, followed by a slew of cursing in Serbian of course. Cautiously, I cracked my door open a bit to see was the hell happened. It would have been much better had I not looked.

    I've just only realized how much MONEY I'm missing out on for not taping all this crap. I also don't know how my parents haven't killed each other yet. Here is the conversation after the crash and after they calmed down to speak in normal tones [not screams of bloody murder]. It takes place in my parents room. I watched!

    M. Dukes: So we [insert whole nauseous game plan here that I don't understand]
    Big Kahuna: *takes drag of cigarette* Yes I agree.
    M Dukes: continues blabbling.
    Big Kahuna: *nod, nod, takes another drag*
    M.Dukes: on and on and on she goes
    Big Kahuna: *yet another drag and suddenly realizes there is no ashtray. Located plant in their room and ashes in plant*
    -----Silence of Certain Doom Ensues----
    M. Dukes: You didn't just do what I saw you do.
    Big Kahuna: Huh? <--oblivious. Woman was holding a hammer.
    M. Dukes: WHY DID YOU ASH IN MY FERN?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU'RE GOING TO KILL MY PLANT!

    And then the yelling starts again lol, having absolutely nothing to do with whatever they miscalculated that caused the crash. M. Dukes also yelled at me because I "was following" her when I was in fact just trying to go to the bathroom downstairs to pee.

    Buddha and I agree that this shit needs to wrap up already. We're not happy with our treatment from other entities occupying this residence.

    [Hope I made someone giggle :)]

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • The "I Don't Care" Phase...

    Has officially started, concerning Finance. As I mentioned before, it's very demoralizing when you hear from your friend (who happens to be finance major) that a certain Sadistic Professor is putting things on the test that are way above the curriculum level. This past weekend (Happy Halloween btw) I tried to study, until I realized...what the hell is the point?! I'm NOT a finance major. A marketing company is NOT going to be looking at the grade I get in this class (especially not since I have hookups). So I've decided to just finagle my way through the rest of this man's idea of "teaching." I did the math. Enough people have dropped out of my class (out of the original 30, there is now 18). He's got a quota to meet and I'm going to exploit that.

    A marketing company will be looking at the grades I have for my major, which are (so far) 2 A-'s. I've already got an A average in two of the marketing classes I have now based on the exams I just got back. I have a B average for the third that will probably edge up to an A- before the semester is out. I'm looking at an A to A- range for my Sociology class. I can definately take a C of some kind and it won't do anything to my average except stunt its upward rise a bit.

    So that's that. The test this Wed? Whatever. I'm just going to do the best I can given the demands of the Sadist.

    In other news, it appears as if a Mama Spider infiltrated our house. The likely culprit is one of the plants my M.Dukes moved into the house so they wouldn't die in the cold (the Big Kahuna = not very happy). Why do I think a Mama Spider was in our house? Well, it would explain the three very intricate spider webs in the living room located around ceiling lights. The architects are dozens of little mini spiders. Yup. They have made quite some progress on the light by the stairs. I'm waiting for the moment when someone loses it and throws a hissy fit coupled with an extermination mission.*coughBigKahunacough* Hint, hint.

    Sigh. Off I go to write yet ANOTHER damn paper.

    I need a vacation.

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • Random Gripes/Some Fun On the Side

    Facebook needs to stop "fixing" what ain't broke and focus on stuff that is. People also need to stop hating on me for playing Farmville and posting about it so that my other friends who actually play it can benefit (sharing is caring principal). You'd think if they didn't like it, they wouldn't care so much about what I play.

    My friends enjoy text messaging to the point of classifying the act as obsessive compulsive behavior. I'm wondering when my dad will get tired of paying overage charges and just install the unlimited texting plan for my line. Or he could go the sinister route and tell AT&T to castrate that service from my phone line all together. 50/50 chance.

    My sadistic Finance professor has struck again. I have an exam 1 week from now. PJ, my friend who's a Finance major took one look at my practice exam and told me that some stuff on it was from his FIN3610 (aka Intermediate level Finance) class, not FIN3000 (aka Intro to Finance). Homeboy says it's not in the 3000 textbook. Swell! That should explain why I thought of 5 different ways I could commit homocide during class today! Sadistic Professor also overheard me repeat what PJ told me to a friend when leaving class (I was being loud and angry). I sent him my most intense "Glare of Death" when I heard him laughing. Sadistic Professor ceased laughing and is now (with good reason) afraid of me. Highly satisfying!

    My sister keeps watching M.A.S.H. Enough said.

    I've developed a violent hatred for an annoying slacker who's in my Marketing Research class. Currently, I'm trying to get him expelled from our group project. Rest of group is in agreement but we haven't gotten around to speaking with our cute Italian professor (she is amazing!). As luck would have it the asshole lives in my neighborhood. Today I snapped at him because he kept shaking the back of my seat. He tried to be cute about it, but I promised him physical harm (in very colorful language) if I even felt a tremor. Annoying Slacker road-runnered out of class when it was over. It was extremely satisfying.

    The problem of the lack of Internet on MuMu's PC has been pinpointed. When I restarted the cable modem, our off-site Firewall deleted all protocol pertaining to her IP and reverted to older protocol. The old protocol said that she could not access the Internet at all; a year ago my dad set it that way because MuMu was not doing her school work and screwing around on the Internet instead. All that needs to be done is fix that protocol and internet will be restored.

    MuMu has told my mother that after this semester, she will revoke all my rights to use the MAC. Just because I'm supposedly "claiming it as my own." My mother rebutted with: "Fine! We'll just get your sister a brand new laptop." To which MuMu replied: "WHY?! SHE DOESN'T DESERVE ANYTHING!" To which my mother replied: "That's not for you to decide. If I didn't think you were only interested in bossing her around and controlling her, she wouldn't be getting one. Since you don't want to share and she helps you out despite that, you can now wallow in [translating from serbian now] nauseous jealousy." I FINALLY WIN SOMETHING! YES!

    I have decided to post some pictures of The Yellow Ninja at his finest.

     



    These are the GORGEOUS Nissan GT-R's (new Skylines) that I've seen at the Nissan dealership on 47th and 11th Avenue. I want one baaaaad....

     
      

    Enjoy.

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